Sept 10th, 2018
Today was the first day of class in CSM and going into class we were separated into groups and given three words. Our three words were: Futurism, Hair, Wrap. Then came the word map where I started to branch out the definition of each word from my own perspective and connect them in their meaning. In futurism I found forwardness and purpose which connected to 'wrap' in that they both possess purpose. A 'wrap' can intertwine objects and bring them together, while also acting as a separation or form of protection like 'hair' and so forth. My difficulty was trying to bring them together and form one whole meaning since the way I approached the subject was more abstract than literal. After creating this textual aid I began walking around to take photos and create a visual aid. I took pictures of people with their legs crossed in different ways around the class; hair being twisted on top of their heads or the back; plastic bags holding clay; furniture thrown atop each other in awkward ways like blocks that don't fit into one another or just thrown with no regard; and different postures that made clothes drape differently. Once I finished my group and I took turns speaking of what we came up with and began exchanging ideas. Im not really sure if my ideas from the word map were effective but if I had some more time I think I would've reached a common factor connecting the words. However, the visual aids really helped me since I easily plucked ideas from the images and shaped them to what I wanted. Next time I develop a concept I will try to put some literal meaning in my word map so I can have a balance of both abstract and literal meaning to accompany a wealth of visual aids.
Sept 11, 2018
Visual reflection means taking your words and manifesting them in a physical way. During class we did visual exercises that combated our normal way of working and that stretches our abilities, pushing us to do unexpected things. After we created lined drawings of objects in front of us, we were instructed to reimagine them in a different way by focusing on only a portion of the drawing. I enjoyed doing that the most as I reimagined my buddha charm and created a mixed media representation through tape, ink and paper. I will take the aesthetic ideas and materiality behind that to incorporate into my project. I still need to research about futurism, although I know I want to use Ayn Rands philosophy behind morality of man based on logic and mans life as a standard value in a collective society, while also focusing on every individuals subjective personality. Once I have the logic behind the piece I can go on to figuring how I can combine that with the materiality I want to use.
Sept 12th, 2018
While there is no class today I woke up early and got to the library to start researching about futurism to try and find a connection to Ayn Rand's view of man as a ' heroic being with his own happiness as the moral purpose of his life, with productive achievement as his noblest activity, and reason as his only absolute." Futurism represented that to me and while the word itself seems to represent some advanced society with flying cars and technology beyond imagination it masks the real meaning which is the ingenuity of man triggered only by his belief in himself.
* I forgot to write down the names of the books however I will attach photos and notes relating to the content I read
After reading the books I found that Fillipo Tommaso ( the founder of futurism) best described what futurism was, not an artistic movement but an evolution of man in redefining his mental discipline. However I wasted time getting to this point by reading page by page the previous books when I should have just skimmed through them. I was really inspired by these photographs taken by Wanda Would ("Me + Cat") and Anton Giulio ("The Roses" and "The Bow"). The movement in the photographs were so fluid but chaotic in how the physical presence of the individuals got intertwined with the energy and it reminded me again of Man's morality and sense of self in a time where society continually repress it.
Reading these books really changed my image of Futurism as I initially though it was this materialistic and aesthetically driven time period when it was so much more than that. It wasn't about the physical but the internal drive to manifest the physical.
Once I got home I started working on the piece I would make. Two mediums I had decided on were ink, tape and of course paper. I started to layer the tape on the page but it looked like it was lacking something so I started to spread ink on the stickier side and layering it on the page. However the color of the black ink was subdued since it was underneath the tape and so I layered ink on the opposite side as well. The tape represented the hair of individuals as they were unraveling at once to reveal something underneath that was bursting with energy, which was the "self" unfolded and true to its own shape and form. The "self" of individuals were torn pieces of paper with ink plastered on the front. I was inspired to do that when I saw a scrap of paper on a table of ink brushed across a paper. To add some color I made some bold caricatures of people that while may be physical exaggerations express something residing within them internally that has festered and turned into bitterness. It didn't mesh with the piece well and so I tried cutting them and playing them on the page but that didn't work either so I had to scrap the idea. My idea remained as it was with ink and paper. I spent hours after the caricatures trying to take a break and look back at what I could change or grow. And at 5am I decided It was full the way it was with meaning and purpose.
Sept 13th, 2018
Everybody was gathered at school preparing to showcase their pieces to everyone within the foundation course. I had struggled the previous night to finalize my piece, unsure whether it was complete or not. The caricatures were supposed to add some color and contrast to the techniques shown on the page but it just watered down the whole meaning and aesthetic. And so I was nervous and unsure what to do to elevate it. That morning we were given thirty minutes to prepare an area or secondary object to showcase our pieces and so I went off to one wall putting my notebook against it. However it needed something more to convey the depth of context it held and so I started assembling chairs awkwardly interlaced with one another to show how as a society we collectively force ourselves into a mold. The chairs were bent over one another wrapped in tape to hold them in place and on one of them I placed a charcoal sketch I made of individuals as though they were also being withheld from freedom. I think the chairs worked well together to convey the idea but the charcoal sketch didn't elevate the meaning of the piece and wasn't recurring on all the chairs so didn't make any sense. I'm please with the piece but I do feel like its missing something.
Sept 14th, 2018
Looking back at the week, I do feel like I made a lot of progress in how conceptually I am able to convey an idea although maybe without following it all the way through. I can't help but think its missing something like maybe color or just a strong contrast to the monochromic palette and chaotic brushstrokes. The caricatures were supposed to act as that contrast and I wasted hours worked on pieces that I wouldn't use. Eventually when I did discover it didn't fit I even tried cutting them up and placing them on the page but that didn't work out either. And so I have yet to pull that piece together. But the progression of ideas can clearly be seen from the work I did using ink and collage as well. The critique that I got from people is that I need to slow down when I am explaining my idea since I speak really fast, unable to convey the idea clearly. And that I should think of turning this piece into something more physical than two dimensional so that its more interactive. I learnt so much though in this one week, which is how context can really carry an idea and push the way you approach techniques and materials you have grown comfortable with.